Anatomy of Desire

I want to be astonished,

want to feel

something I couldn’t have expected,

want that awakening

into the sense that I’m

not in control, as I thought,

that some force much larger than me

is shown to have held the reins all along

so that all my assessments dissolve

Not that I crave helplessness

or even being overpowered

for its own sake,

Just that I want to be in awe

For awe impels my growth

into something I only faintly sense,

deeper and older than hope,

some destiny

worthy of my whole soul. 

©Wendy Mulhern

November 23, 2014